Thursday, 29 August 2013
Get back on track
Not talking about dieting per say (is that spelt right?) but my general exercise things. Nearly two weeks ago I made the mistake of trying to lift my little girl, she's 7 years old, 4 ft 2 and 1/2 an inch (the half is important). She is not little, far from it, as soon as I had lifted her, just to look out a window that was tiny bit too high, I felt my back twinge. It was a warning shot and walking after was not an easy task. So here I am, trying to exercise, with shoots in less than 2 weeks, and I can't exercise. Pilate's was too much :S Back to my physio exercises!
So now I have to find a way to get back on track and try to strengthen my back, plus I really need to remember not to lift my kids up anymore lol.
Also tried to clear the shed out, managed to get stung by a wasp that was dead, I was almost embarrassed, it's not even alive and it still got me. It's been hours (since 4.30pm, its 12.24am) and it still hurts.
So now I have to find a way to get back on track and try to strengthen my back, plus I really need to remember not to lift my kids up anymore lol.
Also tried to clear the shed out, managed to get stung by a wasp that was dead, I was almost embarrassed, it's not even alive and it still got me. It's been hours (since 4.30pm, its 12.24am) and it still hurts.
Tuesday, 27 August 2013
Hair styles
Ok so I have cut back in my fringe, the picture is below. So do I cut in more fringe or leave it?
These are the images I'm looking at, can I pull them off, or should I leave it alone?
Sorry about the piccie of me, not my most flattering lol.
Oops!
Shared a link to a friends Herbalife page, backfired a little, lost several likes in one go :( frustration central.
Guess that will teach me, not going to be doing much share for share for a while, seems to be putting people off a lot at the moment, I'm so close to 450 likes but I get close and then lose a few and drop down again, I was at 447 this morning, I'm at 444 now :(
I feel bad as I clearly put some people off, but I am annoyed too, as the last one went after I posted an image of my in a shirt and bra and then they unliked, maybe they don't like my picture?
https://www.facebook.com/PinkLilith1982
Guess that will teach me, not going to be doing much share for share for a while, seems to be putting people off a lot at the moment, I'm so close to 450 likes but I get close and then lose a few and drop down again, I was at 447 this morning, I'm at 444 now :(
I feel bad as I clearly put some people off, but I am annoyed too, as the last one went after I posted an image of my in a shirt and bra and then they unliked, maybe they don't like my picture?
https://www.facebook.com/PinkLilith1982
This was the image, by John Howcroft Photography, I didn't post any of the lingerie ones for this very reason, so I guess I'm not surprised if people think I'm "selling out" or something by doing a lingerie one.
Oh well, booking for September now, gonna sort my diary for October onwards once I know what my timetable at Uni looks like.
Thursday, 22 August 2013
Watching and waiting.
I'm not an impatient person all the time, most of the time I can manage. Sometimes my patience is strained, and sometimes I'm impatient, but I'm only human right? So I'm waiting for my exam results as I had to resit my Stats exam, don't like waiting for that. I have applied, for the second time, to Alt Girls Extraordinaire, I am not expecting to get in. I'm not impatient for that, and yet I am. I want to know, but I am expecting rejection again, so I don't want to know at the same time.
I submitted photos to CT Magazine and BD Magazine, I would like to see the magazine, but it doesn't work that way. So again I have to wait lol. Also I want to lose more weight and sort out my tummy, before you say, I know why my tummy looks like it does, only surgery can repair it. However, surgery costs £4.5k and I don't have that, and the weight loss is slow going, especially since I hurt my back again. So having to wait to get exercising is making me impatient as well.
I know I need to learn some patience in these matters, but I won't lol, I will check my email one more time. I will stare out the window and long for the change to go for a run/jog (attempt at running followed by much panting). I will refresh the page and check the calendar, because that is who I am. I am patient with people but not with myself. Tough lesson to learn!
As a reward for my ramblings, here, have a look at one of my new pictures!
I submitted photos to CT Magazine and BD Magazine, I would like to see the magazine, but it doesn't work that way. So again I have to wait lol. Also I want to lose more weight and sort out my tummy, before you say, I know why my tummy looks like it does, only surgery can repair it. However, surgery costs £4.5k and I don't have that, and the weight loss is slow going, especially since I hurt my back again. So having to wait to get exercising is making me impatient as well.
I know I need to learn some patience in these matters, but I won't lol, I will check my email one more time. I will stare out the window and long for the change to go for a run/jog (attempt at running followed by much panting). I will refresh the page and check the calendar, because that is who I am. I am patient with people but not with myself. Tough lesson to learn!
As a reward for my ramblings, here, have a look at one of my new pictures!
Saturday, 17 August 2013
Sorry for the silence!
Sorry about that, I've been prepping for my stats exam resit, yes I know, I blew the first go, fingers crossed I didn't blow the second go!
On another note, anyone got instagram? Come and visit me!
And on yet another note, I have had a submission accepted to CT Magazine, exciting, hopefully I'll be in the next issue. I have 2 shoots booked for September, so hope they work out ok and I have one tomorrow, which I do not intend to blow. So tonight I will be doing my hair and nails and hopefully tomorrow around 8.45 I will be setting of for the studio, it's a bit of a drive :S Hopefully I'll have some photos to show you, some on FB, some on PP and even some on Ultravixen!
On another note, anyone got instagram? Come and visit me!
And on yet another note, I have had a submission accepted to CT Magazine, exciting, hopefully I'll be in the next issue. I have 2 shoots booked for September, so hope they work out ok and I have one tomorrow, which I do not intend to blow. So tonight I will be doing my hair and nails and hopefully tomorrow around 8.45 I will be setting of for the studio, it's a bit of a drive :S Hopefully I'll have some photos to show you, some on FB, some on PP and even some on Ultravixen!
Friday, 26 July 2013
TGI Friday!
No I'm not going to TGI's though I would love to, they used to do a cocktail called mudslide, lovely. Anyway, sorry for rushing off the other day, didn't get the house I was hoping for, she decided she didn't want to move. I can understand why she didn't want to move, but it is frustrating, her with her 3 bed all alone, me and my two girls and their dad is moving back soon, and we are in a ground floor 2 bed. Still, it is a big flat and we have our own gardens, front and back, so maybe someone else will want to swap instead. Not going to lie, I'm disappointed, feeling down right melancholy today, but I will live.
So on a change of subjects, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed soon, I don't wax legs though I am considering it, but what about bikini line? It sounds downright painful but then grow back (sorry TMI) is pretty bad and that wouldn't happen any more. So it's worth it right? I'm not sure why I'm worrying, until the tops of my legs and my bum get less cellulite, I'm not going to wear much in the way of undies on their own for shoots. But then again, if I can deal with it, and get some nice vintage sets, it would be nice to have those shots available.
Conflicting.....
So on a change of subjects, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed soon, I don't wax legs though I am considering it, but what about bikini line? It sounds downright painful but then grow back (sorry TMI) is pretty bad and that wouldn't happen any more. So it's worth it right? I'm not sure why I'm worrying, until the tops of my legs and my bum get less cellulite, I'm not going to wear much in the way of undies on their own for shoots. But then again, if I can deal with it, and get some nice vintage sets, it would be nice to have those shots available.
Conflicting.....
Friday, 19 July 2013
Another Pinklilith?!?!
Ok so you can tell this doesn't happen to me often, I tried to sign up to instagram and it wouldn't let me, because my username was taken! Shock horror! There is another Pinklilith. I have only had this problem a couple of times so it is a weird experience lol, to give you an idea....
Only a little image but lets just say in the first 3/4 pages the only pinklilith on there is me, except the one on instagram, and one on WoW which is definitely not me lol. It's very surreal, I've been using Pinklilith since I was in college, maybe longer. Weird....
So yeah, if you're looking for me, here are a few places you can look.
lol take your pick!
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
Slightly fed up actually
So last night I got a message about a house swap, I live in a ground floor, 2 bed flat with my 2 daughters, both narrowing in on puberty, I would very much like to get a house before that occurs, separate bedrooms would be a blessing. So I was pretty excited to get this message and very keen, I don't need to see the house as I am fairly certain I would be willing to swap even if it needs loads of work you know?
However I am not the only one she is talking to, there is a lovely lady not far from my who has a newer flat with a garage (though no garden and not ground floor if I am correct), with two little boys, much younger than mine admittedly. My subconscious has already come to the conclusion that I have lost out and she hasn't even see this place yet, but its old and in the process of being decorated and I need to finish the garden. I do no feel positive :S
However I am not the only one she is talking to, there is a lovely lady not far from my who has a newer flat with a garage (though no garden and not ground floor if I am correct), with two little boys, much younger than mine admittedly. My subconscious has already come to the conclusion that I have lost out and she hasn't even see this place yet, but its old and in the process of being decorated and I need to finish the garden. I do no feel positive :S
Monday, 15 July 2013
Busy Bee
Sorry I've been quiet, I have been off being a busy bee, lots of course work to do, sunshine to enjoy and photo shoots to do before the summer holidays kick in and I can't get away from the kids lol.
I really need to do some gardening and housework but I am soooo hot it is getting silly, right, I am going to motivate and then come back and show you some photos and shoes and stuff lol.
I really need to do some gardening and housework but I am soooo hot it is getting silly, right, I am going to motivate and then come back and show you some photos and shoes and stuff lol.
Sunday, 7 July 2013
Too much to do, too little time!
Roll on the end of this week and it hasn't even begun. Tomorrow I need to sort out paperwork for uni finance, paperwork for my coursework, shop for hair dye for my mum whilst she is stuck with her foot up and do the ballet run with my youngest. Then on Tuesday I have more coursework and revision for my stats resit (don't even ask). Wednesday I have the dentist which scares the hell out of me, Thursday I have a shoot with Mike Blades and I have to sign on, Friday a shoot with Roderick Alan, Saturday weight watchers and the girls have gymnastics, Sunday a shoot with Rick Martin. And then a new week all over again.
Is it the holidays yet?
Is it the holidays yet?
Tuesday, 2 July 2013
Purple Port
Hi people, so I'm trying to sort out the account health on my Purple Port account, can't do much about references, or casting calls until later in the year but I can link people to my account, so here, if you get curious, have a nosy!
http://purpleport.com/portfolio/pinklilith/?referrer=pinklilith
On another note, I'm back on the Jillian Michaels workout, it may kill me but I am finding that my legs at least are coping much better and they look better too. Need to use heavier weights though, its not having much effect on my arms.
http://purpleport.com/portfolio/pinklilith/?referrer=pinklilith
On another note, I'm back on the Jillian Michaels workout, it may kill me but I am finding that my legs at least are coping much better and they look better too. Need to use heavier weights though, its not having much effect on my arms.
Saturday, 29 June 2013
Motivation
So I woke up this morning, prepping for weight watchers, made the mistake of weighing before I left the house. I've gained, I'm not going.
It's so childish and annoying, I am not one of those "I must be skinny!" types, but I also think I shouldn't be able to pinch two inches on my back... so I want to lose the weight. I'm building some cracking stomach muscles but because of the layer of fat over the top you can't see them. Exercise can build muscle, but on its own it won't make you smaller after all. Then after having my little sulk, one of my friends comes on and has a little sulk followed by an "I'm not giving up that easily moment" and now I feel maybe I should be thinking the same. I'm usually fairly upbeat and positive, spurting motivational statements left, right and centre. So it is a little out of character for me to be so down on myself about not losing. Enough is enough. I am a big girl (age wise) and if I don't like something about myself I either need to get over it and learn to love it or fix it. Whinging helps no one after all.
It's so childish and annoying, I am not one of those "I must be skinny!" types, but I also think I shouldn't be able to pinch two inches on my back... so I want to lose the weight. I'm building some cracking stomach muscles but because of the layer of fat over the top you can't see them. Exercise can build muscle, but on its own it won't make you smaller after all. Then after having my little sulk, one of my friends comes on and has a little sulk followed by an "I'm not giving up that easily moment" and now I feel maybe I should be thinking the same. I'm usually fairly upbeat and positive, spurting motivational statements left, right and centre. So it is a little out of character for me to be so down on myself about not losing. Enough is enough. I am a big girl (age wise) and if I don't like something about myself I either need to get over it and learn to love it or fix it. Whinging helps no one after all.
Time to get off my bum and deal with this, instead of blaming everything except laziness.
Thursday, 27 June 2013
Photos are up!
Got my photos back from Ken (Base Photography) and there are some great pictures, but I need to pick some for Ultravixen, and I don't want them too generic, think I need some extra special ones at some point, hmmm.....
On another note my page was unliked last night, normally I lose a liker and I wonder if I did something specific or if they just realised they weren't that interested. This time I have a feeling it was something specific, and I'm not sorry. Ooh bad huh? Someone who has inboxed me several times, been told each of those times that it is not appropriate to pester me for photos and that living down the road from me made it worse and a little creepy. He chose not to take the hint, I lost my temper and I didn't hear from him til about a week ago. Then I made the mistake of answering, so he messaged again and I told him point blank to stop messaging me. He may have got the hint, I hope. Perhaps it was him who unliked, if it was and that is why, then I don't mind. Learn about boundaries man, you crossed them.
Waiting for photos to upload is tedious, why is my line so slow, this is meant to be a 10mb line?? I don't think my phone line can cope with it, or maybe BT restrict it or something. I don't know enough about broadbamd, I just know this is frustrating.
Not my imagination lol, just checked my speeds, download, 5386kbps, upload 385! Figures.
On another note my page was unliked last night, normally I lose a liker and I wonder if I did something specific or if they just realised they weren't that interested. This time I have a feeling it was something specific, and I'm not sorry. Ooh bad huh? Someone who has inboxed me several times, been told each of those times that it is not appropriate to pester me for photos and that living down the road from me made it worse and a little creepy. He chose not to take the hint, I lost my temper and I didn't hear from him til about a week ago. Then I made the mistake of answering, so he messaged again and I told him point blank to stop messaging me. He may have got the hint, I hope. Perhaps it was him who unliked, if it was and that is why, then I don't mind. Learn about boundaries man, you crossed them.
Waiting for photos to upload is tedious, why is my line so slow, this is meant to be a 10mb line?? I don't think my phone line can cope with it, or maybe BT restrict it or something. I don't know enough about broadbamd, I just know this is frustrating.
Not my imagination lol, just checked my speeds, download, 5386kbps, upload 385! Figures.
Sunday, 23 June 2013
Preparation!
So I'm meant to be having a shoot tomorrow, I say meant to be, because for the most part they haven't gone to plan, I have a 45 minute drive to this so it better go to plan lol, he has some good references and some beautiful photos.
http://purpleport.com/portfolio/kenphotographer/
Excited and nervous are my general reactions, I am prepping myself as we speak, cleaning, trimming and repainting nails, shave legs, find outfits, moisturise face, can't have it refusing to co-operate tomorrow.
I need an early night but that seems unlikely, and I want to sort my basic make up before I leave so that I have plenty of time when I get there, the details are on my phone as to the order we're doing things, which is a little annoying, not sure how I'm going to arrange it to be honest, I'm working on it lol
Hmmmm.... what to pack, what to wear?? We've planned some but not all, and the best way to ensure I can change outfits is to ensure I have items that can cover me under my clothes... lol this is going to be easier said than done, perhaps in the future I should invest in a pop up tent lol.
Hopefully in a few days I will have some photos for you to see! Fingers crossed.
http://purpleport.com/portfolio/kenphotographer/
Excited and nervous are my general reactions, I am prepping myself as we speak, cleaning, trimming and repainting nails, shave legs, find outfits, moisturise face, can't have it refusing to co-operate tomorrow.
I need an early night but that seems unlikely, and I want to sort my basic make up before I leave so that I have plenty of time when I get there, the details are on my phone as to the order we're doing things, which is a little annoying, not sure how I'm going to arrange it to be honest, I'm working on it lol
Hmmmm.... what to pack, what to wear?? We've planned some but not all, and the best way to ensure I can change outfits is to ensure I have items that can cover me under my clothes... lol this is going to be easier said than done, perhaps in the future I should invest in a pop up tent lol.
Hopefully in a few days I will have some photos for you to see! Fingers crossed.
Tuesday, 18 June 2013
Writing with a rumbling tummy!
So I crawled into bed last night and showered this morning, getting out of bed was hard work! It did cross my mind though that my legs were the main aching area and that is not my problem area, as I mentioned last night, I need to work on my arms and tummy. Jillian Michaels does do a 6 weeks to 6 pack work out, is it worth a try? I guess it can't hurt... ehem.. actually it definitely can hurt but you get what I mean, it's worth a try. Arms wise, I have no idea, Tracy Anderson does a tough arm work out, maybe I should do hers and the abs one and alternate that with the usual one?
On another similar note, my Zombies, Run! app updated to Zombies, Run! 2, I assumed I would have to buy it so I was surprised. I'm starting to build up my new base, please take into account I don't run, I walk at an increased rate, jog or climb hills lol, and I am not ready to actually be chased, so I know my times are lame lol, but you gotta start somewhere!
This is the link to my base if you want to nosy https://www.zombiesrungame.com/pinklilith/base/.
Listening to a track list that was sent to my by DJ Otis, its his bbq playlist and it is a great mix of mellow and funky, I'm really enjoying it, totally go listen if it sounds like your thing! It's "The Sound of the Summer Sessions: Backyard Bbq Sauce! (original recipe)".
Oh also, I have a request to any of you that are facebookers, please take a look at my page and vote in a couple of comps for me :D
Please vote for me (picture number 6) in the Punkin Pie Sponsored Models comp and the Pinup Paradise Covergirl comp :D
Speak laters lovely people :D
Monday, 17 June 2013
Jillian Michaels may be the death of me
I have done my Jillian Anderson workout, it seems to work my legs the most, ironically not my problem area, perhaps it is time to alternate it with something for abs and arms... Never mind I will get there in the end, right now I need water! I'm boiling and worn out lol. I need a shower now though... ewww.
So before I go I am going to give an idea of what I look like, minus the make up, the photoshop and the costumes lol.
Night peoples!
So before I go I am going to give an idea of what I look like, minus the make up, the photoshop and the costumes lol.
Night peoples!
Motivation! Get your butt back here!
I need to do my exercises, not just because I'm trying to lose weight but also because my physio would not be happy if she knew I wasn't doing them. But I can't be bothered. Meh, motivation is eluding me. Plus I like this music I don't want to have to turn it off, and the cats are sleeping on my yoga mat, that's hell points right? I'm wasting my evening trying to boost my facebook likes, because I can, and that is the only reason. Ooh I did find a new page I like though, Scale Mail on facebook, jewelry made of chain mail and scales, it is really beautiful! This is some seriously stunning stuff!
Really beautiful stuff. I want about 80% of their products lol. This is never a good start because I can hear my purse crying from here lol.
Alright, I'm going exercise and then shower, and if I survive, I will be back!
Really beautiful stuff. I want about 80% of their products lol. This is never a good start because I can hear my purse crying from here lol.
Alright, I'm going exercise and then shower, and if I survive, I will be back!
Sunday, 16 June 2013
Opening Scene.
I'm sitting here, on my partners laptop, contemplating gaming with the little voice in the back of my head telling me I should work out and shower first. I've had a filling dinner, which is fine as I had a tiny lunch. But the knowledge that I skipped Weight Watchers this week is lingering in the back of my mind. I also promised my man that I would play on the PC with him tonight. Oh decisions, decisions.
Overall, in the grand scheme of things, these aren't important or big decisions but I'm saving those for tomorrow when I have to worry about them, the "can I afford that?" and "have I sorted this?" questions can wait for Monday, not much to be done on a Sunday night really.
So yes, I'm on Weight Watchers, not because I "should" be, or because I "have" to but because I know I can afford to lose some weight without hitting dangerous levels and I would feel happier to have a size 12/14 body than a 14/16 body. Having said that I would most love to lose the wobbly arms, but I have weights and I'm working on that lol. But this blog isn't about following my weight loss journey thing (though you may have to occassionally put up with it).
It's not about my modelling, I don't consider myself a model really, I think I've not been doing it enough to count myself as such, give it time. Maybe I will start to feel more like one. It's not about my never ending battle to get just the right shade of red hair, knowing I can't go back to what I started with lol. Nor is it about my confusing tastes in clothes or music. Or about the amazing but unusual group of friends I have, or about my idiotic cats or my crazy over intelligent children.
It is about all of it. The biker dad, the nurse mum, the nerd in disguise partner, the clever beautiful kids, the endless supply of things I insist on trying, the frequently changing tastes in clothes ( I don't fit one style I like to play with them all), the whinging about weight and excitement when I succeed.
I guess you'll just have to tag along and see what it is all about ;)
Overall, in the grand scheme of things, these aren't important or big decisions but I'm saving those for tomorrow when I have to worry about them, the "can I afford that?" and "have I sorted this?" questions can wait for Monday, not much to be done on a Sunday night really.
So yes, I'm on Weight Watchers, not because I "should" be, or because I "have" to but because I know I can afford to lose some weight without hitting dangerous levels and I would feel happier to have a size 12/14 body than a 14/16 body. Having said that I would most love to lose the wobbly arms, but I have weights and I'm working on that lol. But this blog isn't about following my weight loss journey thing (though you may have to occassionally put up with it).
It's not about my modelling, I don't consider myself a model really, I think I've not been doing it enough to count myself as such, give it time. Maybe I will start to feel more like one. It's not about my never ending battle to get just the right shade of red hair, knowing I can't go back to what I started with lol. Nor is it about my confusing tastes in clothes or music. Or about the amazing but unusual group of friends I have, or about my idiotic cats or my crazy over intelligent children.
It is about all of it. The biker dad, the nurse mum, the nerd in disguise partner, the clever beautiful kids, the endless supply of things I insist on trying, the frequently changing tastes in clothes ( I don't fit one style I like to play with them all), the whinging about weight and excitement when I succeed.
I guess you'll just have to tag along and see what it is all about ;)
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